10-18-15 The greiving begins

How do you learn to forgive the two people you trusted the most in this world your husband and your protector your sister I think my sister hurts the worst I want to forgive her but then I know how deeply she can hurt and I don't know that I can ever be open that door and if so maybe I'll just crack it I don't know that I can ever fully open it how stupid can one be first of all for not seeing second person for allowing of that person back into your life like nothing ever happened I just don't know that I'm ready for this I am broken into a million pieces by the people I trusted the most life's real funny isn't it