11-2-15 Hurt

I am still being exposed to the monster that I loved and lived with for so many years. It seems as though the pain Will never end. It is hard to conceive what a monster he really was. I know how horrible he could be to me Sometimes but had no clue what he was doing to everyone around me. My heart aches knowing I did not protect them. I hate myself for being so blind. Lord please uphold this heavy heart as this burden is way too much to bear.  Amen