9-24-15 The book Carries on

This is the first time I have revisited the book I am preparing for publishing as most of what it entails forces me to relive the moments...day by day and almost second by second and it can get horrifying for me at times.  I wrote a little bit more in depth about when the department of children and family services took us from our mother's care and placed us in foster care with my grandparents. Today, I realize exactly how lucky I was to have a family member willing to take us in and keep us even though we were very rebellious and even blamed them at times for the things we had gone through. When I speak of we, I refer to myself and my sister, my protector. It seems as though I can only write a little at a time as the feelings and emotions that lie within those memories are devastating and horrifying at times.  I do realize in order to get better I must face and deal with my own reality that I have run from for so long now. I want to lay these things to rest and tell the world how broken one can become and how God's mercy is so amazing that he can come for those who are labeled "nonredeemable".