Monday, February 22, 2016

12-8-15 Doubt

I have found myself in a lot of doubt lately. Doubting every choice I've ever made and my ability to make good choices for my future.  I am trying to be still as I have always been a runner from everything. I am heartbroken over a relationship I've been in for about a year and a half now. Not knowing if I should walk away or try to wait. He is facing some hefty time and what's crazy about it...I don't know that the time is even negotiable to my heart. I cannot fathom finding another who completes my soul the way his does. Sometimes I get lonely and have sought others but there is no doubt he was sent for me. No one understands my brokenness the way he does nor am I willing to allow another into that part of me. I just feel victimized over the whole thing. I had no control over any part of what landed him where he is. I feel a bit lost in soul and my mind is my own worst enemy. Praying God will provide discernment over the whole thing. I need some sort if peace desperately.  Thanks for listening.

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