9-27-15 To God be the Glory

Today I am filled with gratitude. I am rejoice that the Lord is coming for those labeled in society as "nonredeemable". Often times people judge a book by its cover not thinking past what lies within. I am so grateful to have been found. I know in my heart I would never be able to accomplish what lies behind me nor ahead of me without him. He has made me so grateful to know that he has forgiven me for things I could never forgive myself for. He is my refuge, my comforter and most importantly my creator. He rejoices in my weakness as that is where he can work the most in my life. I have surrendered to the fact that this life is not possible without him. Crazy how I never even knew that all the answers I have so longed for are right in the book that I too...judged by its cover. I know my past experiences are hard for some to fathom, especially myself, but I believe he is calling me to tell others about the good work he is doing in and around me.  My life is worth living and my story will inspire others even if it is only one soul who can see the hope and believe with all of their heart he is the savior, the almighty creator I will have done great things in his eyes.  What a small repayment it is for all that he has done for me. He SAVED me! I was a lost soul who felt hopeless and helpless most of my life and rooted myself solely in the accomplishments that were pleasing to this world but once I realized doing what pleases him reaped so much reward beyond what one could ever imagine, that, that alone has begun filling this never ending void that I once held in my soul. I heard the pastor's message today speaking about how we were all created to worship something from the day we were born and I couldn't have said it better. I however, was not seeking to worship him.  Maybe it was fear that I had gone so far that even he could not reach me, not true.  I worshiped money, my career, success and many things that were not stable nor ever truly can be. I had gained all of those things and still found myself empty and seeking more, more, more. And the overwhelming feeling of instability in the workplace kept me up many nights. Now, I have begun to see everything in a much different light.  Even without a job I know he will provide for me what I need. Most importantly I am finally spiritually ALIVE. I never realized how dead I was on the inside. I am so grateful that he came for me and met me right where I was in my sin and all and told me "come to me my child, seek refuge and I will be your deliverer" and that he did! To God be the glory I am being set free!